Thursday, July 5, 2007

My hair's days are numbered.

Well, it happened. Shortly before giving Dawson a bath, I scratched my head and removed a large clump of hair. As I "helped" it come out, I looked over to find Dawson, now 20 months old, pulling his hair and placing it in the trash can. It brought humor to a mournful experience.

David wanted to read a book tonight, "Where's Mom's Hair?" once he found out what was happening. Dave had to read it because I just couldn't even read the first page. I'm feeling a lot of things - sad, obviously, but also angry. This is just another reminder of what is happening to me and will be a reminder every time I look in the mirror, regardless of how I am feeling that day.

The good part about this is that I got to go shopping. I have some new accessories to show off and David keeps telling me, "Mom, that looks beautiful." Dawson, on the other hand, screams and runs away from me or tries to rip it off my head. We are going to have to work on that . . .

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Barb, remember to keep in mind that you are making sacrifices now to fight this disease and improve your health. Focus on the long term and what this is all for. We would all love you even if your hair were flourescent green . . . well, maybe Dawson would still have a hard time! :-)

Seriously, this is a only a temporary affect of a battle you will win. You have so many people and so much in your life that God has truely blessed you with. These are the days when sometimes you have to look a little harder but God always gives us more blessings than we could possibly count.

We love you,
LJ & Chris

Unknown said...

Dear Barb,

I remember when my mom was going through losing her hair from chemo. Once we got used to it, we had fun playing with her wig and hats and other accessories. And when her hair grew back, it was thick and curly and more beautiful than it was before the chemo. God worked through the difficult situation to give my mom the curly hair she had wanted! God really can work anything out for good!

We are praying for you and your family regularly. I know God will get you guys through this!

Love,
Laura Williams

Anonymous said...

We love YOU, Barb - regardless of whether you have hair or not.

There are many men who wish that their hair loss was only temporary - just ask Mark!!! :)

Keep fighting the battle, but rest in the strength of the Lord and the support of those who love you.

May God give you an extra measure of His grace today!
Love,
Vickie

Jim Wilson said...

Hang in there Barb!

I know that every aspect of this disease sux - try not to let it get you down.

You know from Robin that these things are just temporary and that they do pass. Do anything that you can to focus on the positive. The better you can feel the better you'll be.

Don't be afraid to cry - it really can help. Have your cry then move on and be with the people and things that you love.

We all love you!!
Jim

Anonymous said...

You are beautiful with or without hair. I also remember my own father losing his hair during his chemo treatments. He was so excited because they promised him thick, dark hair when it grew back. He was much older and men don't always have the same results as women. We still laugh that he ended up with his same old gray hair again, but he has been in remission for 17 years, so the hair sacrafice was worth it!

Love, Susan S

Anonymous said...

Barb, I enjoyed being with your men the other day! I have been reading your journal entries. From friends, who have gone through cancer treatment, I remember them saying that when their hair started to thin, it meant that the drugs were working. Know that I am praying for you and your family. I told Dave to let me know if I can help in any way. Keep the faith..... Judy Mulhern

Anonymous said...

Barb,
I saw the new "do" in church Sunday and thought it looked great. Dave mentioned that Dawson isn't wring up a little early in the mornings. We'll keep praying for that little source of irritation too.

Poppa Ish